bananie's Journal

10:42PM - tired feet, no movie.

i should remind myself to just cut and paste my entries, lest it be obliterated again.

this morning, i went online to check out new people on friendster. sabi ko, i'll just take an hour then i'll get ready for school na. but regie went online and we chatted and even when i said that i have to go soon because i had to be in school early for our project, he still logged off before i did. i have become a friendster freak.

heaved my butt off of the computer chair just in time for me not to be late. but i still didn't go to class. (the one with the cutest teacher in the world) instead, i worked in the lab for something like, five hours! whew. buti nalang aircon...

i made a new friend pala. :) i overheard a girl talking to her teacher and i think she was having problems with her drill bit, so i lent her mine. and i think she's the cousin of my ex's churchmate whom(/who, whatever) i was sorta looking for last year. eh. small world. big deal.

and after that grueling day, i was finally able to go to starbucks to meet up with kai. (which i almost forgot) finally met sheryl, her kabarkada. (new friend #2. :p )

took a cab to megamall, and when we got there, lo and behold! the line for cine europa winded, and snaked, and folded too many effing times that it was no longer reasonable for us to get on it.

needless to say, we didn't watch the movie.

but all is well, we just went around looking for stuff to give people (ourselves included) this christmas...but whenever we found ourselves in a home store, we just found ourselves saying that that was what we wouldwant for our own place when we finally get to move out of our parents' houses.

and the best part about it was we mutually wanted to be roommates.

kai, when that day comes, our place is just gonna be fab.

lifelong friends. coolness.

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8:45AM - hmmm....

interview ng buddy ko kahapo at inapi-api sya nung isang mem. nakakainis. feeling ko tuloy mejo naulit yung interview ko na galit sa kin mej yung same na mem. hmph.

pero... happy naman yung buddy ko afterwards eh. he treated us (me and rr, his other buddy) to a movie last night. watched daddy day care since we decided we could have a good laugh since we were all mababaw anyways...

went to megams after school to buy stuff for the electronics project and watch the movie. nakakainis that they ran out of some of the stuff we needed...hmmm...there's always north edsa.

got a tummyache from the sumo meal i ate in tokyo tokyo.. i prolly won't be eating there in a few weeks...

still don't have my pic for friendster. eh. my friend hasn't emailed yet. cute ko pa naman dun. (ahahahaha)

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magfe-fencing ba ako today? hmmm... kailangan gumaling ako enough by october 5. yun yung test if i'm good enough for it to be credited as my PE... hmm... magmamakaawa na lang ako kay anton to give me extra lessons.


sana

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10:49PM - ang cool talaga ng friendster lalo na pag mejo makapal mukha mo

kaninang morning, i downloaded answer keys for our exercises in econ from uvle. sabi ko, mag-aaral ako right after. but guess what i ended up doing? friendster. baduy. 30mins before the exam lang tuloy ako nakapag-"aral". sana magaling yung hula skills ko today.

met up with kai after the test and watched legally blonde for the second time. i can't believe i still laughed. it's such a brain-relief movie.

peak of the day: after such a loooong absence, jotham texted me and said he missed me. :) and he agreed to meet up sometime during sembreak.

(a penny for your thoughts)

8:56AM - hahaha...

i have a veeeery important exam later in econ and i haven't even started reading my book. i just downloaded answer keys for our exercises and look for my friend's old exams... hehehe....

man, i wish i could ace this test. but wouldn't exactly deserve it unless i get my lazy butt off of this computer chair.

okay, okay. i really better be going.

good morning world!

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3:15PM - ewan ko ba...

lately, nakakatamad lang talga mag-net, and therefore, mag-LJ. darn. lahat actually, nakakatamad na gawin. i don't even study anymore. i just keep watching tv. buti nga mejo sumipag-sipag na ako these past few days eh.

pero...ang tindi ko pa rin mag-cut ng mga first class. shucks. masama to.

and it looks like i won't make the PE test for fencing in october. i've only trained for four weeks and i keep skipping training. hiya tuloy ako kay anton...buti na lang i tell him beforehand para di na sya ma-bother...

oh well...

last wednesday i went out with nikki, giselle, minik, dio and rr. we were all supposed to have lunch together somewhere in xavierville (betty's or some other) but i had class (lawrence tan! heehee) and rr had org stuff so we just made habol instead.

went to metroeast for a movie but couldn't decide which one to watch...in desperation, we watched freddie vs. jason coz that was what the guys wanted.

it was so bano.

there were really creepy parts and stuff but how the story progressed ultimately sucked. waste of money. buti na lang libre.
hahaha.

so here i am, bumming around even if i have a test tomorrow. i'll be hitting the books in a while...but i'll check the UAAP games first...

i wonder who's playing today...

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2:59AM - puyat...

tama si kai, nakaka-adict yung friendster. parang you wanna look for everyone you know...tapos oo nga, nakahanap ako ng people na mejo impossble connections dahil 2 pa lang naman friends ko since i joined kanina.

anyway...may nag-occur lang sa akin na thought.

kaya siguro ang tamad tamad ko na mag-LJ these days eh kasi masaya ako sa buhay ko. i mean, other than being really busy with school, parang i have fun with the people i'm with everyday and i come home happy. or sometimes, i'm too tired na to go online and tell everyone about my day. sana ung UP meron computer center like the one in ateneo. nakakainis kasi yung computer terminals na provided ng school... puro UP sites lang pwede. bleh.

oh well...

tomorrows another day.

at makikita ko na naman yung teacher kong napakagwapo at ultimately infatuated ako sa kanya. mas crush ko pa yun kesa kay bernard palanca.

the moment i get my hands on his picture, i will show all you guys just how much you're missin. :p

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2:49AM - hey LJ

i posted this entry a couple of weeks ago. but apparently, it didn't work. when i checked out my LJ the latest entry was still about myfirst day of fencing. oh well. it's a good thing i saved a copy on my pc. here goes...

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hey LJ! it's been a while...

it's been a whole month since my last entry . and it's not like there was nothing to write about--in fact, just quite the opposite.

Well, the last post-worthy event i can remember was ailyn's gig in KAFE last August 1, i went with abi and met up with owel then got introduced to jeb his batchmate/friend and other cool people and saw a couple of really promising bands. Ailyn was getting really good with her singing, and she was really excited to see that we came to watch her. It’s just too bad that abi had to go home early so she missed their set…but there’s always a next time.

Then that weekend, I think I just stayed home and watched old movies on TV. I think that was when, for the first time in like ten years, I was able to catch Sleepless in Seattle from start to finish. Because for some reason, I always end up catching it at the rooftop scene (which by the way, is the end—to my dismay); this happened several times before actually, until that lucky lazy weekend.

Tuesday after that, I went to a yearbook meeting (jemai! I still owe you those write-ups. Sorreeeee…) then went out for pizza afterwards with kai, aree and rr sa yellowcab. We kept fooling around with rr’s new phone and taking wacky pictures of ourselves and had good laughs about the people around us. (we were outside on the balcony and it was a good spot for people watching).

Anyway, that was the last gimik I had with aree before he left because I wasn’t able to go to his sort of despedida in Pier One the following weekend. That’s my second most regretted gimik that I didn’t go to as some people who were usually never with us when we go out at night like Stacey, were there. Plus, they went to a comedy bar afterwards, and I’ve wanted to go for so long. It’s just too bad that I fell asleep that afternoon and woke up around 8:30. They told me they were still having dinner then. (darn, sana humabol na lang ako.) All I remember doing instead was watching the Little Rascals on HBO. It was a nice movie…the kind that makes you feel better afterwards ‘cause it’s just so cute and you don’t have to think through it and it brings a warm, nostalgic feeling.

Hmmm…week after that I went out a couple of times…Monday night, I went out with Bart, Tanya, RR, and Aree (oops! So yellow cab wasn’t the last time after all..) and went to Laffline. Ang gwapo nung isang comedian! Too bad he’s gay…pero crush ko pa rin sya. Ayun, then holiday the next day…maulan…lazy day sana…kaso…

I was stuck in school for a leadership training seminar thingy. Gag. I sooo regret the day I volunteered. And the only reason I did was because they told me there was gonna be paintball. So there I was, bored out of my wits and stuck for a whole day with one of the most unpleasant people in my org. Buti na lang, OJ was there so I had someone to talk to. And jef ramos (hehe..kai…) went by in the afternoon and made small talk during the break…

Haay..kay haba...ano pa ba?

Oh, that weekend my mom came home from the states. We picked her up Friday afternoon and went to duty free that Sunday…bought myself a nice pair of pants, a sweater and a shirt and lotsa chocolate.(yum!) Then the bad news came.

She did not buy my palm zire. she said it was too expensive at that time and my cousins in the states didn’t buy that for themselves naman. And my stupid brother told her I didn’t really need it when in fact I did. (my 62’s calendar is jammed with reminders and meetings and birthdays and stuff plus I can get nifty programs for school) I wish I just told her to buy me an orange cybershot instead. Sulk.

…because we live in a material world. And I am a material girl…

loads of other stuff happened but I’ve forgotten them already…the first couple of weeks I kept tab of all the post-worthy stuff and stashed them in my brain but lately, I guess, there’s just been too much going on that I don’t know where to start.

…I’ll get back to you tomorrow. Then, I will fix this really rough draft of my first journal entry in aaaages….

p.s. kince, I owe you five answers and a dugong. peace!

(a penny for your thoughts)

12:24AM - hey LJ! it's been a while...

it's been a whole month since my last entry . and it's not like there was nothing to write about--in fact, just quite the opposite.

Well, the last post-worthy event i can remember was ailyn's gig in KAFE last August 1, i went with abi and met up with owel then got introduced to jeb his batchmate/friend and other cool people and saw a couple of really promising bands. Ailyn was getting really good with her singing, and she was really excited to see that we came to watch her. It’s just too bad that abi had to go home early so she missed their set…but there’s always a next time.

Then that weekend, I think I just stayed home and watched old movies on TV. I think that was when, for the first time in like ten years, I was able to catch Sleepless in Seattle from start to finish. Because for some reason, I always end up catching it at the rooftop scene (which by the way, is the end—to my dismay); this happened several times before actually, until that lucky lazy weekend.

Tuesday after that, I went to a yearbook meeting (jemai! I still owe you those write-ups. Sorreeeee…) then went out for pizza afterwards with kai, aree and rr sa yellowcab. We kept fooling around with rr’s new 3650 and taking wacky pictures of ourselves and had good laughs about the people around us. (we were outside on the balcony and it was a good spot for people watching. i.e., the people inside).

Anyway, that was the last gimik I had with aree before he left because I wasn’t able to go to his sort of despedida in Pier One the following weekend. That’s my second most regretted gimik that I didn’t go to as some people who were usually never with us when we go out at night like Stacey, were there. Plus, they went to a comedy bar afterwards, and I’ve wanted to go for so long. It’s just too bad that I fell asleep that afternoon and woke up around 8:30. They told me they were still having dinner then, sana humabol na lang ako. All I remember doing instead was watching the Little Rascals on HBO. It was a nice movie…the kind that makes you feel better afterwards ‘cause it’s just so cute and you don’t have to think through it and it brings a warm, nostalgic feeling with it.

Hmmm…week after that I went out a couple of times…Monday night, I went out with Bart, Tanya, RR, and Aree (oops! So yellow cab wasn’t the last time after all..) and went to Laffline. Ang gwapo nung isang comedian! Too bad he’s gay…pero crush ko pa rin sya. Ayun, then holiday the next day…maulan…lazy day sana…kaso…

I was stuck in school for a leadership training seminar thingy. Gag. I sooo regret the day I volunteered. And the only reason I did was because they told me there was gonna be paintball. So there I was, bored out of my wits and stuck for a whole day with one of the most unpleasant people in my org. Buti na lang, OJ was there so I had someone to talk to. And jef ramos (hehe..kai…) went by in the afternoon and made small talk during the break…

Haay..kay haba...ano pa ba?

Oh, that weekend my mom came home from the states. We picked her up Friday afternoon and went to duty free that Sunday…bought myself a nice pair of pants, a sweater and a shirt and lotsa chocolate.(yum!) Then the bad news came.

She did not buy my palm zire 71. she said it was too expensive at that time and my cousins in the states didn’t buy that for themselves naman. And my stupid brothere told her I didn’t really need it when in fact I did. (my 62’s calendar is jammed with reminders and meeting and birthdays and stuff plus I can get nifty programs for school) I wish I just told her to buy me an orange cybershot instead. Sulk.

…because we live in a material world. And I am a material girl…

loads of other stuff happened but I’ve forgotten them already…the first couple of week I kept tab of all the post-worthy stuff and stashed them in my brain but lately, I guess, there’s just been too much going on that I don’t know where to start.

…I’ll get back to you tomorrow. Then, I will fix this really rough draft of my first journal entry in aaaages...hafta go to bed..school tomorrow...

p.s. kince, I owe you five answers and a dugong. peace!

(a penny for your thoughts)

3:08AM - hay...kapagod.

yahooo!!!! nakapag-fencing na ako!!!!

hehe..cool. sabi ni anton (the guy coaching me) i was pretty good for a first-timer. i kinda got the the hang of it agad so we didn't dwell much on footwork and moved onto swords. (yipeee!)

i actually learned sword-fighting today! kahit basic lang.

nae-excite ako. gusto ko na bumili ng gear.

i'm sooo gonna take this seriously.

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7:49PM - woah! ang dameng bananie!

i was bored and ran a search on my name and found a lot of 'bananie's...and one in particular caught my attention...

merong children's book series na Annie Bananie yung pangalan nung character.

heehee.

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9:03PM - ang bait ko daw...

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

i saw this test while browsing through old entries of friends... turns out, i'm good enough not to go to hell. i was kinda expecting a level 2 at least...i should probably give myself a little more credit. :)

i really need to start studying....i'm so not getting the scores i want, and oother people are beating me to it. that shouldn't happen again. i won't let it. i need willpower. dammit.

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11:15PM

nasisira na ang ulo ko sa kaka-solve ng math problems.

math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.math.

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9:12PM - of artfilms and gentlemen.

i just got home from watching "dancer in the dark" with owel. artfilm. astig.

the movie was really really sad. bjork was the lead and her life was just so miserable. puro downhill. but everytime she feels sad, magiging daydream sequence and it would transform as if out of one of her music videos.

kaya hindi mashado nakaka-depress yung movie kasi each sad scene would break out into a song and dance part. ang amazing ni bjork. sya lahat gumawa ng music tapos yung mga tipong spoken lines lang sana, napatungan nya ng tono and it sounded really good.

tried doing that sometime ago (really embarassing) and i think i pretty much sucked at it. even if the person listening to me was enjoying the whole thing. but that's another story.

it was agood movie but watching it made my legs kill me...parang yung feeling ng may trangkaso...hehe...ang lamig kasi sa movie house and then i did a lot of walking around plus ang init paglabas ng mall. so bound to happen yun...kaya oks lang. :)

i had a pretty good time. hindi mahirap kausap si owel eh. di tulad nung ibang times na stuck ka with someone and then you run out of things to talk about and you frantically search for common ground. i hate that feeling. pet peeve as some may call it.

when owel left na, i went around looking for a birthday gift for kai. hoping i would chance upon something that would make me say to myself, "it's sooo her!" pero none so far...although there was one thing that came reallyclose.

di ko sasabihin, baka malaman agad ni kai

para bang fi-fit sa lifestyle nya. and she probably needs one by now...*hint*...tapos when i looked, sarado na yung shop, so nag-hand signals at lip talk nalang kami nung lady sa loob. nagsusulat sulat kami with our fingers sa air tapos natawa na lang kami pareho, i said my thanks then went on my way.

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chivalry is not dead. kudos to the gentlemen out there who hold doors open and give up their seats for total strangers and to those who move to the danger side of the road when they're crossing the street with you.

i'm glad i always have guys like that around me.

(4 pennies | a penny for your thoughts)

8:19PM

"People learn early in their lives, what is their reason for being," said the old man, with a certain bitterness. "Maybe that's why they give up on it so early too. But that's the way it is."
--from Paolo Coelho's The Alchemist

8:36PM - i'm soooo sick...

i look like rudolph the red-nosed reindeer because of this terrible, terrible cold. *sniffle sniffle* and it makes me really drowsy which i kind of hate, plus the headache that usually comes with a cold. and i'm coughing too.

*sneeze* *sniffle sniffle*

darn.

apart from that, yesterday was a DISASTER.

the lunch-out i planned for the freshman block we handled didn't go as planned. putres, dalawa lang yung dumating... (which was really really bad because we had to take their BLOCK picture). may humabol naman na tatlo...pero hwaw, out of +/-25 people?? my goodness.

tapos hindi ako makaalis dun kahit may class na ako, so nag-cut na lang ako. *sneeze sneeze*

*sniffles*

and the biggest disaster of the day was that I DIDN'T GET TO GO FENCING!!!!

*sniffle sniffle*

excited na excited pa naman ako...i brought everything dum told me i needed...extra shirt, water, rubber shoes...tapos hindi ko maiwanan yung freshmen kasi konti lang yung members (nung dumating nga yung humabol na tatlo, dalawa na lang kami. leche.) at block handler nga naman ako so responsiblity ko din naman yun.

pero after that day, i really felt bad. parang sobrang sabog ko mag-plan. sobrang hindi na-coordinate. ang shitty nung feeling. parang gusto ko pa naman sana magpasikat na ang galing galing kong block handler tapos papalpak din naman pala.

siguro kaya ina-avoid ko yung mga responsibilities that come my way eh... i always try to find someone else to pass the on to. because i don't want to be blamed for failure. i don't want to be identified with a screw up.

and yet, i so long for praise. and for genuine compliments because people were really pleased with what i've done. not something that was said to me just out of courtesy. parang consuelo de bobo. gusto ko mapadalas yug pagtikim ng compliment na buon puso kong tatanggapin because i know that i very much deserved it.

nakaka-frustrate. pero kahit na sabihin ko na babawi ako, parang magiging short-lived lang din yung change. kasi eventually tatamarin na rin ako, at maiisip ko na wala naman talagang sense yung ginagawa ko. (minsan kasi parang di naman naa-appreciate. o napapansin man lang.)

kaya tuloy ngayon, tamad tamd na naman ako sa aral. di ko tuloy alam kung papasa ako dun sa exam sa eee21 kahit madali lang.

i feel crummy today. and i am sick.

*cough cough sneeze sniffle*

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8:54PM - exam! exam!

just saw frida with abi and bitoy. and i haven't watched an intelligent movie like this one in ages...it's either A Beautiful Mind or Traffic. but i liked Traffic better if it's worth anything...

*groan*
we just got the result of our first log exam sa math54. pucha, 66.7% lang ako. demet. umaasa pa naman ako sa sa 80-something...kahit nga 70+% lang... para mabigyan ko yung sarili ko ng isa pang reason na ok lang na mag part-time job ako...

cool naman eh. barista sa starbucks sa rockwell. baka after second exam, pwede ko na i-allow yung sarili ko mag-barista. naisip ko kasi, if ever magwo-work ako while studying, eto na lang yung time ko. kasi after this sem (or max,Christmas break) subsob na ako masyado sa aral to even think about working on the side. so ayun.

haaay...busy busy day tomorrow...

big exam in eee21 (digital logic stuff. ie, 1's and 0's...very boring really...) ...after that lunch out with the freshmen block we're handling...eh isa ako sa taga-organize. dang. tapos fencing club pa sa hapon..

cross your fingers for me, sana makapasok ako! para makumpleto ko na yung PE chaka pra na rin i could try something new..yay!

may something na nakakainis (na mejo blessing in disguise din.you'll find out later) na nangyari regarding those freshies...

meron kasing parang dance contest, tapos dalawa sa freshies namin sumali. eh ang nagturo yung kabilang org...yung isa, parang ewan, dun sumali! parang ang traitor masyado. hmph.

ok lang. di naman namin sya like. siya yung tipong taong hindi mo pa gaano kilala naiinis ka na. para bang may aura siya na nakakainis or something. kaya ok lang. buti na lang dun sya sumali. i personally wouldn't be able to stand her...(kaya blessing in disguise..hehe)

ang sama ko no?
anyway, aral muna ko...toodles!

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11:30PM

i'm still not over the fact that the journal entry i labored over this morning got deleted all with the click of the back button.

maybe tomorrow i'll feel better and write about my week.

anyhoo, it's no cover story either way. and i'm still having inhibitions. i'm still thinking over whether i should start writing about personal thoughts per se. i've never really done that.

maybe talk, but never written about them. and right now, i'm not really sure whether i should start.

should i?

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3:28PM - grrr...

shit talaga. grrr....

sa susunod, sa note pad na lang muna ako magsusulat. demet.

things like that really, REALLY irk me.

(a penny for your thoughts)

3:25PM - bad trip!!!!!!!!

nag-uupdate ako kanina tapos ang haba haba ng sinulat ko tapos nag-fail kasi daw mali yung nalagay ko na password tapos pag pindot ko sa back button nawala na lahat!!!! syet!!!!

dammit.

tinatamad na tuloy ako.

mamaya na lang.

(5 pennies | a penny for your thoughts)

2:35AM - Rock EnRoll

went to the peyups concert after a semi-uneventful day.

i kinda feel crummy i didn't get to see chicosci play, we already left a little bit after imago's set. i REALLY wanted to see miggy tonight. just for kicks. (he's so gwapo).

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before going to the concert, i lingered a bit with my orgmates in qzone. kinda bared more than i'll ever care to. i hate talking about emotional stuff these days...it gets me back to an analytical mood where i try so hard to find all the answers and rationalize everything that happened between us. it's a really crappy feeling. add to that my orgmate's big mouth that kept provoking old feelings. shit. made me cry even.

i'm not sure why i cried really. i guess all the talk of high school life made me miss those days so badly. life then was really perfect, despite all the stress we got from acads. we (as in everyone in school) had our own little perfect world. and in those days, the 'us' that is no longer, lived a pretty happy life. i was just overwhelmed by the stream of thoughts and memories that made those days look damn good.

i miss high school.

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